Remember the hill? This is one time I could not make it up last week… I had to stop and walk with frequent breaks so I got the phone out.
Judging by how dark this image is I need a better headlight on the bike but it gave me an idea to light paint the path, something I can continue to work on and improve.
In my defence I am ill (though I did not realise it at the time) and under orders to rest, the timing of which annoys me no end.
– Is a good thing to apply in life occasionally, particularly when it gets cluttered and confused. There is something appealing about an object or process stripped down to the essential elements.
Needing to make a mark and all the elements are present, a surface to record on, a tool to record with but no idea of what to place on the page… My mind is as dull as the weather at present.
The only consolation is chocolate
I spend too much time looking at me feet… Doing that showed me two things;
- I need new boots and;
- I need to reboot the project and get through this block I’m experiencing.
To do that, I know I need to fail a lot, doing what does not work to get to what does. When your subject is inanimate, rework is not an issue. Being rejected by a potential sitter does not bother me as much as disappointing that person who is giving up their time.
The reality is that will happen and the sooner I work through it the sooner I will get some progress.
There is this rising sense of creative frustration I’m experiencing lately that needs breaking with some urgency.
The time I freed up when study finished has been sucked up by things I could say no to or defer when I was studying. I do get little things done but there are no blocks of time to commit to more and that’s the reason I have not put up a new project lately. Carrying a DSLR daily and not getting time to use it simply adds to this friction I feel. I just can’t get it together and make something happen and since I was looking forward to doing that it feels like the goals are being moved further away.
The simplest action is to take some leave but that is too complicated at present. It would be easy to stop but that’s not my way. I will wait, chip away at the edges of things and do what I can to go further.
I don’t know who said it but I recall a saying about the real challenge in mountain climbing comes after you reach the summit. I knew something similar to this was coming after five years of study and I thought I had figured out a way forward but that is not exactly going to plan.
Just as well I’m good at re invention. At least I hope I still am…
Listening to Audioslave
But I feel like a spectator rather than a performer at present…
The competition for my attention at present is getting fierce.
- I have several work projects in various states of progress and new things drop in and out of my task list all the time.
- School is progressing to an extent but an assessment is looming and I don’t feel well prepared when I should.
- Photography is taking a back seat to all this other mental debris. It turns out I can’t multi-task and I don’t even want to.
My energy and focus is a finite resource that I want to direct properly but I find I’m second guessing myself about my choices. This is frustrating.
The last few weeks I hit a bit of a slump and I realised it came down to a number of external factors and that I had to deal with so I could progress.
It’s common for anyone that makes or creates to get stuck occasionally. Even famous photographer/international man of mystery Austin Powers…
For me it begins when that little voice starts up…
“You went there last time and you will end up with the same images if you go again”
“The light is rubbish”
“It’s raining and cold”
What we choose to do about it is key. The thing to do is to listen to that little voice but keep doing.
- Don’t make the same images, make better ones or use the same subject but use a different lens or time of day.
- If the light is rubbish BYO light. My definition of “available light” is any light, not just daylight. Use whatever you can to record what you see. I spoke about this in a previous post called faking it.
- Force yourself into uncomfortable situations. I made these yesterday on a two-hour walk in 2 degrees celsius (that’s 35 degrees for those into Fahrenheit)
There is a mix of bold colour, muted colour, black and white, Lenses from 10 – 350mm, fixed and zoom lenses, natural and manmade subjects, large and small apertures, varied perspectives looking up, looking down and not just straight ahead.
All those options can be recombined to produce new and interesting images of the same subject. Some of the macro images are done with a telephoto zoom lens. The building could be photographed using a macro lens. The only image this approach could not apply to is the Kookaburra, unless you could get physically closer.
With point number three, I have mentioned photographing people is a problem I wanted to use this project to address. I had to overcome some anxiety and fear of rejection but now I am making progress. The block is not quite broken but I’m working through it.