Another Xmas done, leaving full stomachs, fridges and bins yet as I get older, memories of missing family temper the joy.
It felt like I made less progress this year and I guess that’s because I dropped the idea of using projects that I could measure against. There were also a lot of expectations that finishing my studies would see an immediate impact, when in fact there were a number of more important things to do with that free time.
Sometimes it seems Christmas is more about what we want, rather than appreciating what we have or understanding what we truly need. Three years ago I set up this blog to fulfil a want and for the most part I have done that. I suppose I’m questioning if that took care of the need and if I am getting the most out of what I have.
The answer to that is not a New Year’s resolution. It’s simply an ongoing commitment to get better at my craft and keep pushing myself into unknown territory.
The competition for my attention at present is getting fierce.
- I have several work projects in various states of progress and new things drop in and out of my task list all the time.
- School is progressing to an extent but an assessment is looming and I don’t feel well prepared when I should.
- Photography is taking a back seat to all this other mental debris. It turns out I can’t multi-task and I don’t even want to.
My energy and focus is a finite resource that I want to direct properly but I find I’m second guessing myself about my choices. This is frustrating.
– This was the best I could do all week. The iPhone would have benefitted from a tripod.
I’m dogged by the problem of having no light when there is opportunity and no opportunity when there is light. It would be nice if photographers could take “good light leave” whenever the day looked promising. If you have something like that drop me a line in the comments about it so I can envy you!
Normally when conditions outside are poor I will set up something inside but that has not been an option this week either. After the last few months of productivity I find this situation most frustrating, especially as time is running out.
I made a promise to make more images and I intend not to break that.